Facing the Giants

Omg! Yesterday was the worst day I have had in a long time! I started my new job and had to leave Easton! This is a heartbreak like I have never felt before in my life! I'm fearful of the unknown. It feels like I am facing a giant... Some of you are probably like really, a giant? But I know you moms understand.

I have faced ALOT and I mean ALOT of giants in my life, but God has always helped me defeat them one by one. 

I have heard the story of David and Goliath 100 times over, but yesterday at church it touched my heart and was exactly what I needed to hear.

You can read the story in 1 samuel 17. The philistines had gathered for a war against the Israelites. They camped for battle on opposite sides of a deep valley. Goliath was the Philistines reassurance that they could defeat Israel. He was over 9 ft tall and wore over 150lbs of armor. All of Israel was terrified and would run whenever Goliath stepped forward.

I have always invisioned him looking like the motorcycle man off raising arizona...

Yes, that's a rabbit he blew up on the side of the road with a grenade... SCARY...

I have always had a bad habit of running from giants in my life. My number one strength is positivity so I tend to avoid conflict. I internalize my fears and dissapointments. I go through great lengths to keep the peace and pretend I am A Ok.

So David, who was only a teenager was sent to the battle lines to bring food to his brother and bring back news of what was going on.

David was only a shepard, but was strong in his faith. With God's help in the past he had defeated a lion and a bear. He decided he would volunteer to fight Goliath.

 "You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied ... today I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds of the air ... and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel ... it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord's, and he will give all of you into our hands."

David reached into his bag and slung one of his stones at Goliath's head. Finding a hole in the armor, the stone sank into the giant's forehead and he fell face down on the ground. David then took Goliath's sword and killed him. The Philistines saw that their hero was dead so they ran, but were defeated by Israel.

2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

David defeated Goliath with the power of God. He gave him strength and courage to get the job done.

I know he will do the same for me and has helped me get through this hard day and will help me in the weeks to come.

As for Easton... here is a picture of him with his Papa today. He is smiling and is doing just fine without me. 

Keep the prayers coming people!